Sorry It Has Been So Long!

Hello all - I know that a few of you have looked to the blog to see how we have been doing, and I am sorry it has been so long since the last posting. I want you to know that Morgan, Jack, and I are all doing well. We sure do miss Laura, though.

Having the kids around is absolutely the best medicine. An old fried of mine sent me a note and reminded me that kids can "find such joy in things we see as mundane or common" -- so true! Morgan and Jack were taking a bath together tonight and they were just having a ball, laughing and playing a make believe "family" game with all their little plastic ducks. It was such a joy for me just to listen to them as I was folding laundry. Both kids are happy and seem to be adjusting to a new life without Laura physically with us, but we talk about her and remember her on a daily basis. She really is present.

As for me, I constantly think about Laura. There are moments that I struggle mightily with the fact that Laura isn't here and I can't be with her. There are moments that I miss her so profoundly that I try to somehow put it out of my mind. But, those are only moments. Generally, my thoughts are of the wonderful things we experienced and reflections of everyday moments that we shared. I hope that she would be proud of the way that I am trying to really live life and create a happy, safe, and nurturing home for our precious kids.

I think about Laura's parents and sister all the time, and pray for peace for them. I know that this is all very difficult, and I know for a fact how much she loved them and how important they were to her. I am grateful that I will always be a part of their family.

It becomes more clear to me every day what a blessing it was to all of us to have had Laura in our lives. Although it would be easy to do so, we should try not to mythologize her. She was a real person, with everyday faults and moments of weakness just like all of us. But, there were so many incredible things about her. She was so wonderful, and so genuinely interested in doing the right thing. She loved her family so deeply. She was just an incredible person. Her example will always be a lesson to me... and to Momo and Jack.

We have done a number of things over the past few months since the holidays. The kids and I went to Arkansas and to a Razorbacks basketball game with my uncle Marshall and we just got back from several days visiting my brother in San Francisco. Jack had his 5th birthday. Morgan is starting soccer (I am the coach), both kids are still going strong in Taekwondo (they get their new belts on Friday), and I plan for a new session of Boys State (my first session as Director). We have established new routines at home, I am keeping up with laundry and meals, slowly getting the house straightened up, but the kids probably still get to sleep too late. Most importantly, the business of living life goes on!

Our family and friends have been so great. Everyone has pitched in to help, or offered to help. Many of you have offered to help in some way, and I have not been able to take you up on it... it is appreciated nevertheless.

That is all for now... I will try to post more regularly. But feel free to send me a note anytime at msplunk@gmail.com or on Facebook. I appreciate it.

Peace to you all,
Michael